I don’t care if they’re teal and orange, do not watch this in sweatpants.
Falcons rookie Deion Sanders takes a knee before a game against the Chiefs. Sanders was chosen by SI’s Chris Burke as the best No. 5 overall pick in NFL history, beating out LaDainian Tomlinson, Junior Seau and Mike Haynes. (Heinz Kluetmeier/SI)
Bolton’s Fabrice Muamba is surrounded by medical staff trying to resuscitate him as his teammates react during the English FA Cup quarterfinal match against Tottenham on Saturday. Muamba went into full cardiac arrest and remains in critical condition. (Matt Dunham/AP)
Desire is something we all have its what gets us up in the morning, through our days, pushes us to sacrifice, to fight, to win. I am learning that unfulfilled desires are dangerous.
When I was a kid my desires was simple to A) be a great soccer player and B) be the man enough everyone would be proud of. OK so the second one isn’t that simple but in my child like brain it was. I would make the world a better place by making everyone happy and in turn that would make me happy. As a grew up my thoughts and way of going about that goal have change but only today did I realize that my desire to be universally liked is really the problem that has been holding my life back all this time. I blamed my parents relationship. And the drama it caused, I blamed my brother for not leading me, I blamed circumstances and situations, I even blamed God. Some days I would say, I’m not smart enough, I waited too long it’s too late but really tonight as I write this in realize it’s not too late I can turn my life around. The first step is realizing that being what others want you to be is not what’s best for me. Neither is trying to keep one way friendships. Step two is lining things up in order of priority and keeping that order. That its better to do what’s best instead of what’s popular. That in order to put ones foot down you must first have a spine to stand up in the first place.
It’s bad with the kids I work with or the parents of the boys I coach but it is worst with woman. I really don’t know where or how it started but saying no to a woman, more specifically a woman I’m attracted to is the hardest thing in the world. I’ve lied, cheated, broken promises, broken personal beliefs and principles all to please or be more attractive to a woman.
Now is the time to break the hold, to truly be my own man, to stop walking in fear that I’m not good enough. To know my worth is in myself and God and my acceptance and love is found in those that truly know me and love me.
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It’s. That time of year again where we give up sins, food, vices, etc to teach ourselves that there’s more to life. So what am I giving up… Well I don’t know fasting while working out as much as I am maybe suicide. Vices I really don’t have many so that leaves sins… Hmmm let’s see there’s list that’s one that I struggle with and should let go. Pride there’s another. Sloth is the hidden one but always an issue. How about we try all 3! So for Lent I’m going to not list after the fine female form. I’m going to try to keep my ego in check and I’m going to get things done and not be so lazy.
Wish me luck.